09wish

today is the last day of 2009...
means 2010 is coming soon....

today is the last day i can see 2009 d sky..~!
although im in my room now...
but i can feel it...
feel the 2009 d sun...!!!

let all the unhappy disappear in this night...
put down everything...
don't bring it to 2010...!

the last wish in 2009..!!
i hope u dont as me...
everyday see the day come and see the day end...
wish u are happy and it is more than me...!!
this is the last wish in this year...

merry xmas

christmas day!~ was over 12~!!!
the clock have no sound tell me it is came...
but messages were told me it is come...
the 1st message i received was viinz....

i wrote messages to each of my lovely 7up members....
everyone have the different contents...
but i was not sent out on 12am....
the longest one and the shortest one guess it is obviously...
i feel sorry lahh...
for those who are don't like the messages...
i just wrote out what im think what i want to tell u...
but no one replied me....sad...!~!!

very morning d xmas....
went to leiiz's church...!!
me...viinz...boz...and didi...
i think it quire successful...
watched the performance...
the performance was head v head...
lolx...
cause we are sitting behind so just can see others' head...!!

after that we went to xiongz party eat the 2nd round...
then went Fcube...
omg...
i felt why Fcube d games all i know how to play ad...
hahahaha...!!

still!~

eve..!!

Christmas eve...
silent night..!!~
a lonely eve as what i told peach..!!
more 18 minutes Xmas is coming...
the 1st second of the xmas im alone with my laptop...
with TV...with...blogger...!!
count down with my laptop...
as what i told my friend last night...
take a clock in front of me...
count down at home...
such a pity eve n xmas...
is it?!!...

tomorrow is Xmas...
leiiz...saz...xiongz...
have to go church...
then what can i do..?!!
follow boz go to leiiz's church and watch performance...!!
then viinz i don't know lohhh...
maybe he will go...maybe not...
haiix...
also non of my business...!!
this word learned from someone last night..!

am i regretted..!!
i guess no..!!

~!

today hanged out with my inti's gang...
always CS...Fcube...
this was our route every times...
next time better go CC....lolx...

today we got one more...
not is 2 more special people...
ufong and jackson..
she came from KT...
because want go to SG celebrate Xmas...

went to shirley's house...
wow...
quite big lohhh....hahaha
so many CCTV...
and one "sound control" TV...
lolx

machii trips pic

bobby hold " bao lian deng" it's belong to san sheng mu... but don't know why it in our room..

so formal d pic...as family pic...





coz i don hv the mood take pic...so b the photographer....

same here

~

machii trips was ended...
the trips details i'm lazy to write it again...
cause its all at my wretch...
but...
i just wanna to ask...?!!
is it a happy trips...
i think it was a happy trips n memories v my dears...
but it also had some unhappy...
a cold war from the 2nd day of the trips until now...
mean from 17th until now...
i don't know whats going wrong...
is my fault...
my bad temper...!!

is that everyone felt suffer in both of us' cold war...
but it seem not...
someone told me...
he is very good person...
treated everyone of us was good...
i know that was a truth...
but i got eyes i can see what i see..!!

but don't ask me WHY..
PLEASE...!!
cause for me...
it is nothings happened...
i felt~!!!
and just...
speechless...
don't have the topic talk to he..
maybe that's what i failure with...
can have no topic with my bro...!!
is a big big joke...!!~
he also have no topic talk v me ahh...
same same..!!
maybe im not others...!!!

got mood just update !!

mixed

so many people did somethings they want the things they did have rewards to them...
but can someone paid out without thinking of the rewards....
but this mind is started from the old times...
in Chinese words teach us...
what u planted and what u will get...!
so if paid out for the plants u can get the fruits...
but if u worked hard to planted...
but ur fruits is not nicer than those who r not working hard....
what will you feel...
jealous...angry....or....
actually people must think of another ways...
what you paid out can make more people happy and enjoy...
it is a good stuff...
so~ why don't you do that without thinking the rewards....


i felt i have something wrong...
but i don't know what was the wrong place..!~
i started so emo this few day...
why??!!!
the answer am i know...?!
emo make people feel sad...
so that mean im feeling sad...
is it?!!...
alcohol i need more...
more alcohol can make me temporary feel relax...
relax i need u...
don't think too much....
but what im thinking of...
am i know...
haiix....

fucking nite,,,

what the hell night....
insomnia until morning...
why..!?
fuck..........!!!!!!
i want sleep...
why my mind can't focus my sleepy mood...

i hate it...i dislike it...
what i hate and what i dislike...
everything....
i hate morning...afternoon...and the insomnia night...
i hate outsider...i hate stranger...
i hate secret...
i hate the dinner tonight...
i hate whatever i don't like...
i hate who is the troublemaker but pretend as the innocent...
i hate...........................................................................................................................................

my sleep my dream can u come back..................
night until morning.........fuck

hate

it was another moody blue day...
i felt sad yesterday....err...
should say I'm feeling sad is more suitable right...
because im still sad..!~
why i will feel sad and who have the power of influence made me sad...
haiix...
is it i can write out what i mood..~
i don't think i have the pro eng can express myself....

what i am...?!!!
seem as a outsider...!?
is it...!!?
not belong to this world...
what i mean the world is not the earth's world..
what im trying to say maybe just i can understand...
sometimes u really made me feel im outsider...
this is not the 1st time...
why..?!!
1st time i can bear it...
2nd times i can bear it...
3rd times it's used to...
then ought to be bear??!!!

i don't know... i can't understand also...
i said before it is non of my business...
why did i care about it...
but i can't did it...!!

this time...
i said to my heart...
i will pretend as i don't know what u r saying...
i will pretend that was not what im thinking on...
i will pretend that im blind and can't saw anythings...
i will pretend as what u want me to pretend...
i will do it what i have said....
even...
that is no even to me again....

a heart was cold...
was frozen...

who know what i want...
who know what i dislike...
who know what i waiting for..
who can give me the answers that i wanted....
what am i anticipated for.........

celebrate

went to cs again!~
celebrated alan's belated birthday...
i though today activities will be cathey and neway...
but out of my perception...
the activities was lunch~shopping~movie~sentosa dinner~ and roost....
aiyo...i saw a jacket very nice lahh...
but it price is RM80...
i think it is not worth lahhh...
but i really like it ohh...haiix....
angle and devil arose....
thinking...considering...
can i buy it...
but my dad asked my mum:" why my shirt all branded d...."
am i?!!
i don think so ahh....
i not willing to buy it lohh....
if it is expensive...
innocent...~!!!

me~alan...zack...shirley...apple...selene...
when we went out got 6peoples...
but when we went back got 7peoples...
because yong cai was followed went to roost cafe...
not really recognized this guy...
but luckily alan like to play games....
so we at roost just played poker...
not chatting....
if chatting i think i will cool................!!
cause i scare stranger...
even he is not...!
coz i know he is alan n apple's friend...

old peoples life...~!!!
or Cinderella's life...~~
back home before 12am...
i really felt boredom for this life...
where is my younger life...
should live as a young peoples....
play until am morning.......

yesterday i went to city square by cab...
why by cab...
because i go alone...
i didnt ask anyone accompany me...
i asked viinz before but he didnt reply me then never mind lohhh...
purposely went to cs to bought leiiz d bday presents...!!
i want buy Dior addict2 d...
but bobby worry that she won't use it...
then have to change my mind...!!~
until the end i bought a bag and two can let her eyes black ring become fade d things....

then night went to xiongz house see he...
today he discharged back to home ad....

wow...
today wear same shirt with viinz....
not 7up shirt ohh...
was a shirt that we bought 2years ago....
never wear same shirt at same day before...
this was the 1st time...
is it "too bro" ahhh...lolx
if i saw someone wear same shirt with me i sure say the people spoil the shirt d feel...
but now someone want go back change shirt ahh...
i know was kidding....haha....

i will support you decision...
if you think that your final decision is what u want...
even that people against it...
i will support you without reason...
but i hope the decision won't change your character...